OId Ma 老马 — Yufei Ma 马羽非

Old Ma / 老马

At the very beginning of 2021, my grandmother, who loved me the most, passed away. For me, although I was mentally prepared, it all came too fast. This forced me to think about whether, I could leave something for my family, especially my grandfather. Many times, I could feel him caring for me and loving me no matter what I did. However, since I am gradually becoming an adult with my own ideas, there will always be some disconnection between the two of us. This situation would make me feel instinctively resistant when he cared for me. Based on these feelings, I took this series of photos as a starting point for me to think about my relationship with my loved ones, and I hope to leave some traces of their existence in this world for my loved ones.

On November 28, 2022, my grandfather left this world without any sign. This group of photos eventually became the last memory of my grandfather and me.

在2021年初，最爱我的奶奶去世了。对我来说，虽然我有心理准备，但这一切都来得太快了。这迫使我思考，我是否可以为我的家人留下一些东西，特别是我的祖父。很多时候，我可以感觉到他对我的关心和爱护，无论我做什么。但是随着时间推移，我逐渐成为一个有自己想法的成年人，在相处的过程中，两个人之间总会有一些脱节。这种情况下，他的关心总是让我感到本能的抗拒。基于这些感受，我把这组照片作为我思考与亲人关系的一个起点，同时也希望能给我的亲人留下一些在这个世界上存在的痕迹。

2022年11月28日，我的爷爷离开了这个世界。这组照片最终也成为了我和爷爷最后的记忆。